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Lady Gaga & Katy Perry Fan Commits Suicide, Sends Last Tweets…


So sad. A Lady Gaga and Katy Perry fan committed suicide yesterday and did so while sending out goodbye tweets. The phrase #RIPKatyCatAllie became a trending topic on twitter Sunday morning and everyone immediately wondered who this person was. With some research I discovered, the young girl, Allie, had just turned 13 years old on January 12th. She had been diagnosed with a brain tumor and struggled with depression.

In her last tweets she wrote,

Upon hearing of her young fans’ suicide Katy Perry then tweeted,

@housjamey, whom Allie mentioned in her tweet, real name Jamey Rodemeyer, is another young Gaga fan who committed suicide back in September 2011. He became depressed from being a bullied gay person. He was 14 years old.

It seems, Allie had been struggling with her emotions for some time. In a disturbing message the young teen posted back in November, she talks about cutting herself and discouraged others to do the same. Below is the message a friend re-tweeted.

I dont want anyone to go through the same thing as me,I know i’m hurting myself and people I care about but if my experience helps stop anyone else from cutting so be it.Don’t cut it ain’t worth it.
Before you make that first cut, remember–
You will find the blood and pain release addictive.
Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren’t deep and will heal easily.
They will get deeper.
They will scar.
They will sometimes take months to heal.
And years for the scars to fade.
If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.
It will spread when you run out of skin.
Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.
Even if you are the most honest person ever to live.
You will find yourself lying to the people you love.
You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.
You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.
Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don’t know how bad it will be.
Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.
Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting.
Cutting and covering up cutting.
And just wait till that first time you cut “too deep.”
And you freak out because the blood won’t stop.
And you are gasping.
And you feel yourself shaking all over.
You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can`t tell anyone.
So you sit there alone.
Praying it will be okay.
Swearing you’ll never let it go this far again.
But you will, and further.
Don’t worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.
And the better you get at treating your cuts,
The deeper they get.
You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.
You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order.
Butterfly strips.
3 or 4 different kinds of dressings.
Antibiotic cream.
Medical tape.
Scar reducers.
You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.
And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice.
Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.
Someone who understands~
But of course that never happens.
Medical supplies won’t be the only thing you spend all your money on.
Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe.
Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots.
The list goes on and on.
You will start looking at everyone in a different way.
Scanning their bodies for any signs of IT.
Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don’t feel so terribly alone.
You wont even think about it,
As your eyes scan their wrists arms.
Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.
But they are not.
You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.
You will start doing a lot of things alone.
You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.
You will always be cleaning up the blood.
Scrubbing your bathroom floor.
Wiping the blood off your keyboard.
You won’t be able to make it through a day without cutting.
Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.
When you get really desperate,
Anything will be a cutting tool.
Scissors,a car key,a needle,a paperclip and maybe even a pen.
Doesn’t matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.
Say goodbye to things you took for granted.
Like wearing shorts or sandals,pedicures,sleeveless tops.
A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.
Get ready to itch.
Because you will itch and itch.
So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.
You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.
You will dream about cutting.
You will dream about being exposed.
It will haunt you day and night and take over your life.
You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting–
At the same time you love it and can not live without.

RIP Allie.

This story literally broke my heart and I was moved to tears.

If you or someone you know have thought about committing suicide PLEASE seek help. Your life is too precious and there will NEVER be another you! You must and should know that. Suicide never solves anything. It leaves your family and friends in despair as they mourn your loss. You are better and stronger than that. You’re worth living and fighting for <3 <3 <3

Another young life gone too soon. Here’s to Allie!

(Photo: @ikatycrazy)

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  • omg jessie j im your daughter i never knew it but i found a piece of hair and i got it tested so we have the same DNA i live in scotland you should know it mum